My Turn

I guess I seperate the time together from the time apart. I am very good at compartmentalized behavior. Like this element and that element never actually mix. Certain time periods again because of this are always good or always bad. When we were talking yesterday - you were talking about the exaltation/diminishing behavior. Long after we were off the phone, I was delving back into anything I said to make you feel less or smaller. I was literally trying to piece out times when I was cruel or hurtful. But I have these silos built. These bomb shelters where I can see no hurt or suffering or anything untoward. I have these relationship memories where everything was good and just. To the point where I was literally like.. what on earth does she mean, I don't usually say hurtful things to make her feel less than she is. In my life, I have memory holed the bad stuff in regards to you. It's in a little vault over there (points) where our break-ups go. Like that is an ugly litt...